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She breaks my heart.  Screaming; no wailing at night. ..at bedtime, at nap, at 4a.m....sometimes noticeably in her sleep while others just wanting to be heard.  We can't shut the door....that's a trigger of complete panic. ...can't help but wonder why.  It's awful...hard to take...hard to live and hard to not react wrongfully. ...she's ours for now and she is safe...hopefully she will understand that soon.  Pray for her :)

Dealing

We got the call about 2 1/2 weeks ago and we've been in a bit of a tailspin since then.  2+ months in care and we would be her THIRD foster home.  Labeled "clingy"...enter a polite, shy, and very intelligent 2 1/2 yr old girl.  She has 2 sets of grand parents working thru the process to get her.   If they lived in SC it would be easy but since they dont and seeing as how our govt likes to create mounds of regulations and paperwork. .it will likely be 6 mos until they place her permanently.   It's a shame since she is at such an important age for making bonds and memories.   She's had one visit with them...for 1 hr supervised in the dss office.  Imagine driving to visit someone you love dearly (I hope) and never harmed to have your reubion be treated like a prison visit.